2017 recap and resolutions I am not going to keep in 2018
Happy New
Year everyone!
Actually, I
had the roughest start to the year. The holidays went past faster than I
anticipated and it was time to return to school. Don´t get me wrong, I loved my
school; well, apart from the one professor that was determined to turn my life into
a living hell. Oh, yes, I get it, it all sounds exactly like the sentence a
lazy student would say. But that´s not my case. Well not since I started my
Masters. The thing is, she just found a good reason to embarrass me and almost
insult me in front of my classmates on my presentation day just because I was
known to hate the subject she was teaching. It was the worst feeling, having
just been turned into a little nothing in front of other people by someone I
was supposed to look up to. But don´t worry, I got my revenge; I learned the
shit out of the subject when I was preparing for my exam, because I knew there
will be other professors present at the examination. And that was precisely the
place where she had to be as objective as possible and hide her grudge against
me. And guess what. I passed with flying colours!
The spring
time was almost all dedicated to my Master thesis. I spent most of my time in
front of my computer or in the library, researching and trying to make it look
as professional an as academic as possible. In May, I handed it in and that´s
where the torture began. I had to wait two long moths to get it back with the
results. I was nervous as hell because the sixty-something pages I wrote were
supposed to determine if I get my long-awaited diploma or not. I did, and it
was better than I expected. All I was left to do was finish my last semester, experience
a summer of doing oh-sweet-nothing, get my diploma and finally set on my grand
trip to the UK, which you already know about (of course I wrote a post about
it!
And it was
a dream come true. It wasn´t my first visit to the Islands, I just never really
experienced it in the way I wanted to; go wherever I want, spent ages in
museums, galleries and libraries, have the most cliché traditional lunch in a
different restaurant every day, walk the old streets and just do whatever the
hell I wanted. And that was exactly what I did. And it was a blast. A fulfilled
dream. And the place where I finished off my knee. Yep, once again. But that´s
a problem I am determined to solve this year.
Of course,
2017 wouldn´t be a year in my life without heartbreaks, either on my side or on
the other. But mostly on mine, I guess. But a short story is a story, too.
Right?
The last
and the most surprising thing that happened at the end of the year was
something you already know, but I am still blown away by it. I am a teacher
(another post, just scroll down) and I met the most amazing young human beings.
Some of them don´t know they are amazing yet, they still have to discover it
within themselves. But I can already see it. And I hope I will be there to experience
their own paths of self-discovery. And I wish them all the luck in the world.
Oh,
and last but not least, my family. I am like an old lady sometimes; I refuse to
leave my house just because I want to spend time with other inhabitants of the
tenth house on the right. But every day
spent with them is so precious to me right now, because I am happy I am finally
home. I don´t know for how long, but I am right now. And I am enjoying every
breath I take in their presence.
And now to
the unknown that lays ahead. And to the promises I will never keep.
Or call it
resolutions, honestly, I don´t think these two terms are any different. Either
way, they are something you promise to keep or do, to yourself or to someone
else. Here are mine:
1. Getting in touch. I can never keep
this one, I keep promising it, though. Doesn´t matter if it´s a friend who I promise
to write about a book recommendation I gave them last week, or it´s someone
I´ve just met and lost their number. Or I didn´t lose it at all. I just forgot
to keep in touch. Is it because I am forgetful, or just lazy? No idea. I just
know that even if I try, I can never keep it.
2. Getting organised. The first thing I
do before the start of the new year is getting myself a diary. A beautiful one.
An expensive one. One with days organised separately on each page. I start
writing down everything I need to remember. I even pack it in my bag so that I
can keep myself organised. Next day I take another bag, because the previous
one doesn´t go with my boots. I forget the diary in the old bag and start
writing notes in my phone. After some time, I am too lazy to grab my phone and
I write everything on post-it notes and throw them in my bag. I forget they are
in my bag and eventually, forget about the stuff I was supposed to do. After
months I decide to change the bag and re-discover my diary, which is completely
useless now, because it´s the end of the year and I should start looking for a
new one. A beautiful one. An expensive one. One which I will, once again,
forget about.
3. Getting in shape. This one is a
classic. And I know I am not alone with this one. After the Christmas
over-eating orgies, I feel like a sumo fighter and am determined to eat less,
start exercising again and get in the best shape ever. And I keep it… Well, I
keep it until the New Year’s Eve, when I participate in a family dinner
followed by a cake, coffee and canapés that last at least two more days. Then I
forget about yoga, about the cardio exercise and about the amount of calories I
am supposed to take. The rest of the years is filled with similar efforts and
fails but I guess the problem is that I really like food. Like really. I love
eating it and preparing it even more. I
guess I am convicted to forever being the beautiful and attractive curvy girl
(and humble, of course :D ).
4. Bad habits. I love bad habits.
Eating can turn into a bad habit, too. But I think in my case it´s just a very
strong love. But one thing I can definitely keep is bad habits. No one can ever
keep me from having a little cheeky smoke in between my classes, not even the
always-keeping-an-eye-on-me headmaster, who is trying to have all his employees
under control. No one can keep me from reading a book in bed for hours and
sleeping over the alarm clock in the morning. No one can keep me (and I would
like to be kept from this one) from overcoming my insecurities, because I will
always be the shy girl afraid of speaking up and having an opinion in real
life. I sometimes, on rare occasions, find myself saying something and
surprising everyone around me, but I wish I could do it more often. But I guess
this is one of my promises I will never get to keep. I told you I am good at
it! J
So here it
is. Everything that was and everything that I expect to never change. But you
know what? It´s who I am. It´s what makes me recognizable in a crowd. And I can
live with that.
The last
thing I want to say is that I hope that your 365 days of 2017 were as eventful
and productive as mine definitely were and I want to wish you all the best;
Happy New Year and enjoy what is yet to come.
Until next
time,
Čauko,
Lenka
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